Needed to publish this somewhere

     Woke up this morning with a new outlook on life and now I will get something off my chest.  I have made mistakes in my life. HUGE, BIG mistakes.  Mistakes that haunt me every single day.  I have made so many changes in the last 4 years to make myself a better person. For those of you who knew me, I was pretty much psychotic.  I will NOT go into excuses why I was the way I was because to me, it isn't important. I will not play the role of victim, regardless if I was or not. I am 41 years old.  I would rather be held accountable for my own "crazy".

     I have lost nearly 100 pounds (gained back a few but was over 100), started going to church (I haven't been in a little while but that will change), started college and will graduate with 3 degrees by the end of May. I got a job through my college and even run my own tutoring business which I don't do just for money but mainly because I LOVE helping others.

      So here it is.  People do change.  People evolve and reminding them at EVERY DARN opportunity mistakes that they made doesn't help ANYONE! Making someone else feel worthless doesn't change the past. I am not the person I was 10 years ago.  I wasn't the person I was 3 years ago or yesterday. I do not know that person anymore.  So a bit of advice to everyone, never judge a person on past mistakes because there is no one who is mistake free, two wrongs do not make a right. judge a person on the here and now for what you know and have observed about them. By no means is this an admission of ANYTHING but I have done wrong. I know people will believe what they want to believe anyway. I love the person I am today and try to remind myself of the changes I have made daily. You can never take away things you have done but you can apologize and pray to the good Lord for forgiveness and you can change and that is all you can do.