Was this year really about preparation for a fight?

      

So tomorrow is probably the scariest test I have or will ever take. It has been a rough almost two weeks since I found the lump. A lot of thoughts have gone through my head. Both positive and yes a few negative. A great friend and wise woman  reminded me during those negative times how blessed I am to be in the spot I am in right now. "Just imagine if this happened a year ago." She is right. I do not believe I would have had it in me to even function during this.

Losing weight hasn't only strengthened me physically but also mentally. Whatever the outcome of this test I know I am prepared to fight. I am not ready to go anywhere anytime soon.

Some understanding PLEASE!

   

     Something I have learned and am still learning that not everyone is going to be happy for you.  You lose 80+ pounds and feel on top of the world.  The truth of the matter is there are going to be people you expect to feel the same elation that you do that do not.  They cannot handle the fact that they enjoy talking about our success for whatever reason.  I know for me this is a hard pill to swallow.
    I can tell you that being around others who are also on the same journey is my only saving grace.  They relate to you in ways your family or non weight loss friends just cannot or plain out do not want too.  I think that is why that youtube and my instagram has become such a calming place for me.

      I also wish that I could write this magical blog that provided insight as to how to persuade them into being happy for you.  I can't.  I am still figuring this out myself.