Monday, July 15, 2013

A wonderful story!

Disclaimer:  This is NOT my story and I do not make any claims to it.  I just wanted to share.
 
 
 
 
 
A young woman went to her grandmother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved a new one arose.

Her grandmother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water. In the first, she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs and the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her granddaughter, she asked, "Tell me what do you see?"

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

She brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they got soft.She then asked her to take an egg and break it.

After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard-boiled egg.

Finally, she asked her to sip the coffee. The granddaughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma. The granddaughter then asked. "What's the point,grandmother?"

Her grandmother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity--boiling water--but each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard and unrelenting. However after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior. But, after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened.

The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her granddaughter.

"When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg, or a coffee bean?"

Think of this: Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity, do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff?

Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and a hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hours are the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate to another level?

---AUTHOR UNKNOWN

Sunday, July 14, 2013

Ground tukey and veggies


I love this combination for a clean healthy lunch or dinner.  It will fill you up and you can even change what veggies and non salt spices to change up the taste.


1 package of Jenni O lean turkey (ground)
1 cup of baby spinach
1 cup of frozen corn
.5 cup of frozen peas
1 cup of mushrooms
Cherry tomatoes
2 Tablespoons of Majorian leaves
1 Tablespoon of garlic powder
pepper to taste if desired



Over medium heat brown turkey meat and drain and then pat with a paper towel.
Add frozen corn and peas and lower heat to L-M and allow veggies to become tender
Then add baby spinach and mushrooms and allow to cook thoroughly.

 Add Cherry tomatoes and serve! A serving is about half so you can save what is left over for the next day.  It is delicious.



Jenni O 220 calories (4 oz)
Corn boiled 59 calories (1 cup)
Peas boiled 55 calories (1/2 cup)
Mushrooms raw 15 calories (cup)
Cherry tomatoes 24 calories (8 tomatoes)
Baby spinach 10 calories (1 cup)

Total 383 calories

Thursday, July 11, 2013

MY WORTH!

    Isn't it crazy how much your mind can change when it has something different to focus on?
I am 39 years old.  I have been a mother for almost 20 years of my life.  I am not a perfect mother.  I have made many, many mistakes.  I will probably make a few more.  A mother doesn't stop being a mother just because her children reach the age of 18.  I feel, as any mother does, that my children are the best.  I gladly gave up college and a career to stay at home with my children.  Now, medical issues played a part in that as well but I did it with a smile on my face.

     Something I always kept in mind as a mother is that my two perfect babies NEVER asked to be brought into this world.  I gave and gave willingly.  If I had 50 extra dollars my children got it. I lived my life that way and I would do it again a million times over so when I say this do not think for a moment I regret any of it.

     I already talked about being just absolutely disgusted at what I have made my children endure because of my choices and I can never take that back.  I also cannot take back at what those choices have done to me.  My body.. and not the outside. I mean the inside.  I think I convinced myself that I didn't deserve anything.  ANYTHING.
I can count the amount of pants I own on one hand.  I can count the amount of Bras I own on less than that.  I really started thinking about this when I joined July's challenge group and we got our challenges for each day of the week.  Wednesday is high heel day.  Folks, I own not one pair of high heels.  I own not one dress.  I own not one outfit I could wear to an interview. I use my daughters make up.  I wear her earrings.  I use her hair products.
I started to workout for me.  I love that I started doing SOMETHING for myself.  I have lost over 40 pounds.  I have gotten stronger.  I am a much happier person and you know what I know I DESERVE to have that pair of heels and when I reach 75 pounds that is exactly what I am going to do.  It may be a simple pair of shoes that I probably will never wear but it's more than that to me.  It's a symbol of my worth.  Realizing that giving to MYSELF ONCE IN A WHILE doesn't make me a bad mother.

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

A few of the reasons

I am sure everyone has their "reasons" they are on this journey and with me it is first about me.  Yes I am actually going to sound selfish for a minute.  I have given up goals and dreams GLADLY for the benefit of raising my children and would do so again in a heartbeat. But besides me there are other "reasons" I am working so hard to become healthy.  Here are a few of them....

 
My beautiful children William and my daughter Lindsey who are both going to college full time on academic scholarships.


 
My best friend. My grandson Braiden who just puts a smile on my face when I feel I have no reason to smile.  He is 2 and a half and I need to lose this weight to be able to keep up with him lol.




My beautiful grandson Andrew who is 5 months old and absolutely precious who will soon be having MiMi running around just like his brother <3

 

 I need to be around for all of them.  I am not ready to die and who would want to leave such a beautiful family.

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Monday, July 8, 2013

Monday...Blah!

     Rest days...
Why do I have issues with them?  I feel lazy and am scared to death to eat anything.  CRAZY!  But..... ......they are necessary.  When you sleep at night and during your off day(s) is when your body enters recovery mode and starts to heal what you have put it through.  I know when I return to the gym after my recovery day I am always able to go harder and faster.  I think that is my bodies way for thanking me for the day off lol.

But off to another subject...

     I weigh in later today and of course I am scared.  I always am.  I didn't eat terrible even on July 4th but I also know I haven't been eating enough.  Yes, I said it right.  I am on a weight loss journey and I am not eating enough.

     I was able to watch a video today explaining in detail about calories and if you should eat your calories back.  This really is a great video to watch if you are trying to lose weight and especially if you use the app "My fitness pal". I got Eliza's permission to post the link for the video so if you get a chance, watch it! I couldn't explain it better myself! I know this is my problem.


                 Eliza's video (Click here)

    To end this blog on a positive note I am starting to see a SMALL difference.  I just do not see it in my stomach which is where I WANT to see it.  My legs are looking awesome.  Just some work on my inner thighs but I have accepted I may always have that loose skin from stretching it out for so long.
I actually saw a little definition on my arms last night :D
Small victories and I am more than willing to take them.  I earned them.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

Why can't I control myself?

Do you know someone on their journey that isn't struggling with SOMETHING?  Not really.  Well me. What am I struggling with right now?

Portion control
Portion control
Portion control

When is my brain going to be satisfied with less food.  I am down 41 pounds as of July 1st yet when I eat I need large portions.  You see on TV contestants eating a 6" sub and are just amazed at how good yet healthy for them.  Um, I'M STILL STARVING HERE! Then you add that extra 6" and the calories are almost 700 and that is without cheese, on a "healthy bread", no mayo...    One packet of weight control oatmeal..are you kidding me?

I just cannot win. I have tried the drinking water before eating, trying to fill up on veggies.
I can deal with some hunger when I do feel it.  I realize there are sacrifices you have to make.  I really do. 

This just goes to show you what years of abuse can do to your body.  It can trick you into thinking you need thousands of calories to function properly when in reality it is poisoning you (if you are a fast food frequent flyer).

I am praying my mental and physiological motivation will catch up with my physical motivation.

Monday, July 1, 2013

I'm sorry for the pain.

     I am going to apologize now for my burst of entries over the next day or so.  I am taking a rest day today and need to keep myself busy so I am writing.  One of the biggest things weighing on my mind is how cruel people can be, namely the youth in the world and how our choices as parents affect our children.

      We all know that when we get in arguments we tend to find a sore spot with the other person to maximize hurt.  The other day I got a hurt hand lesson in just how MY choices affects my children and in addition got me to thinking how many times have they gone through this all because of me.
Let's just say that one of my children got into an argument with someone who feels they are above everyone because of their PARENTS money.  The argument escalated to the point of there was nothing really left to say, well you would think.  Then the words "If your mom would get her ass off the couch and go to work...." "Your mom cannot work because she is too fat to work." Wow.
Now I will ignore the fact that I still do not understand why this person brought me into it when I have never been anything but nice and supportive and skip to how my child reacted to this.  They (my child) became so irate that I had to stop what I was doing to calm them down.  They were close to tears and I guess I just sat back and thought out of everything this person was saying my child was most upset about this.  I wonder how many times they both have had to defend me but never told me.  Thinking back, I would say quite a lot.

     I could sit all day and vent about the decay of morals, respect and manners but for the sake of space I will skip how wrong this was and move into how I feel responsible for my child's anger.
When we become parents we are all excited about molding that perfect little baby into a wonderful person and giving them the world.  Who would have thought that eating cheesecake, ice cream, steak after steak and the loads of garbage I shoveled into my face on a daily basis would cause such pain.
Do you think that being a very large woman didn't affect both my children in numerous ways?  How many times have people made comments about me to them? I bet I couldn't count them.

     I want to apologize to my children for each and every time I have ever caused them pain because of my poor choices.
We as parents must THINK before we act even if we do not feel we need to.  Once for ourselves and once for our children.


Coming soon